Humanity

Lately, things’ve been not going so smooth. Of course, even the sea as well is not always blue & calm. Sometimes there’s the big tide sometimes there’s the calming sea breeze. Call me insane or maybe the believer of supertitious beliefs.

1st encounter: After staying sometimes with my relatives and moved out from there. It was a relief for me to has my own life, my own space, my own privacy. Things were in peace the moment i moved out. Out of the blue, the crisis happened just few days before chinese new year. One of my relatives complained to my parents ’bout my misbehaviour during the stay with them. I never informed them my where’bouts, not paying for my won expenses, spreading rumours ’bout myself being abuse, bad mouth ’bout their so-called bad habits… Damn it! Swear to God that I never did that to these so-called relatives back then. The worst part is that I was told to shut my mouth & to behave for the sake of them as well as for my parents! I was totally stunned. I was claimed to have affairs with colleagues even flirting with the guys around. C’on… with my personality & my physical appearance plus self-confident & self-esteem, bet on hands are there guys attracted to me. Why on earth would I & should I sell myself in cheap sales? The creatures called men might be getting less in this planet yet there are still plenty of them who are solo & successful. Any gals stands a chance for it anyway. More over, the popularity & glamourous of me at works makes these jerks jealous. Only people who really works their works are well-known by each & every corners of the workplace. This applies to every employees especially those young chads like me. I dun say that I’m the most stunning one. Think of it this way: a pig in a bunch of sheeps. The attentions in fact are focus on that pig instead of the bunch of sheeps then. Such nonsenses dun bother me much in fact. But these jerks have the tendency of not seeing people in peace that they create a havoc of it. Instead of making themselves popular in the good ways, they did all stupid & idiot things spoiling their names, themselves, their futures. Again, the ball rolls back to me! Finger pointing at me of the sins they did was claimed to be the sins I’ve done with both my hands. Stupid!! Fine… I forgive them of their stupidities & childish. These jerks dun finish the detroying plan there. From brain washing to blck magics, all sorts of ways to poison others especially my parents in believing that I’m the culprit they are the prey. Bullshit!! Best part of these, my parents trust them! No words can means to clear myslef in this. None believes me not even my parents! I’m really sick of these jerks!! These bunch of jerks in fact are blood-related yet so hypocrite!! They are really expert in making something out of nothing. I only manage to keep my faith strong & do nothing. Even explainations mean nothing none other than self-defending. All sorts of accusatories throw on me will somehow return to these hypocrite jerks someday somehow even worse by God. God is the Greatest!

2nd encounter: We are born as human being & gifted with human brain should we be happy & make full use of it. In fact, we should not forget that there are still the animal sense we carried as human being. Only people gifted with human brain but animal sense will act like animal. None other than animal or worse. Working with people who are not only bossy but do nothing good works nothing well are really a torture to our so-called pure yet innocent souls. The abuse of mentality when working with such bunch of stupid pro who called themselves the role-model is worst than the canning punishment by the prison officers! The pain of the wound we have is not as hurting as the mentality abouse cause by them. The effect of long term mentality abuse is life long. No guarantee of fully recover in it. None & never deliver their works properly only work with their mouth. Their subordinates like me suffers. Of the works I’ve done, I dun ask for compliments or recognitions, not even a word sof thanks i deserved. Working in such environment, one way of avioding myself getting chestpains & tension, these jerks are totally into transparent animals to me. I care nothing I bother nothing I only do my part my works. That’s it. Their mistakes are always the subordinates mistakes. Where on earth in this planet so lucky that we can find a person called human so human dare to admit his mistakes & humble enough to learn from their subordinates?? May God blessed me.

3rd encounter: My parents called me yesterday to informed me to go back at once seeing my garndma for the last time. At the age of 90, the children or the doctors cant do much to save an old life. The moment I saw my grandma lying so weak & breathless on the bed, tears rolled down my cheeck. Recalling back my childhood, I was brought up in a family with strong mindset of male chauvinism. Every generations are rooted with the importance of males in the family despite of the mother carrying the baby-boy in their wombs for 9 months before delivered. If males are so important, why cant they get pregnant & do all house chores? Gals are not given the equality of being educated like guys, to be married at young ages even gals who get married are not supposed to be a career women. Gals are borned to be the weak party also the protective spesies of all times. In any substances, guys are always the priority over gals who are capable nowadays. No matter how civilise we are these days, the minority of these conservatives categories still exist whereby the weakest is still the female also the burden in any substances. Being brought up in the typical old China family, I have to worked so much harder than other people to stand out for myself. I have to study hard under pressure from not only my family also my relatives who are so hypocrite. Scoring flying colours in my studies, having a so-called good job & the so-called good prospect career, the succes of joining government services… Its never an easy & smooth journey for me. It takes strong faith & determinations to undergo all this hardships. I can still recalled the time I completed my study. My relatives dun give a damn at all. All the while looking down upon me as the lowest category in their family, I has to push & force myself going beyond the capability to achieve higher & a step ahead of them. The dreadful & harsh words from my relatives hit me a sudden realising that I have to be strong facing obstacles in life. Thank God for giving me a strong faith & determinations facing all challenges in life. As of the achievements I have standing where I am now, I’m relieve of being who I am. In fact, I’m grateful to all these jerks giving me opporunities to live a better life after all. May God grant me with stronger faith & will to achieve higher & much better..

4th encounter: My boss called up to say that I’m not eligible for more than one days of emergency leaves & to check on how ill is my grandma. Not to mention that I have to resume duty next week no matter how. The sensibility as human being knowing another party facing the lost of their beloved as shown by my boss is really inhumanity. Put herself in my shoes & bet her bp will shoot up to the maximum reading being treated so. I gave no response. Rushing to the nearest branch, I did all procedures as according to the inhumanity boss & fax it immediate to her. Again thanks to her sensibility as a human being gifted an animal sense, may God the Greatest bless her.

Life is short but beautiful. I’m grateful to all these jerks who create havoc in my life by giving me the opportunity of growing up & learning the lesson of survival. Keeping my faith strong, I swear to lead my life to the fullest as long as I’m breathing & alive. May God always be with me granting me the peace of mind & strong will.